The Plan: I decided to continue my fast but instead of 5 days make it a 2 week fast and restriction. Days 1-4 (monday-thursday) I will do a liquid fast. On day 5 I will restrict and only consume 400 calories a day and I will do that until day 7(sunday) and then I will fast and only have liquids from day 8 (monday)-11(thursday) and on friday (day 12) I will start restricting again and do that through Sunday (day 14).
Sounds confusing right? I want to loose whatever I can during this time, I'm not going to set a weight I have to loose because if I do that then I will be depressed and all down on myself if I don't reach it. And if I do reach it I will want to quit the fast and eat, like a fatass. So for now this is what I will do. Teaching myself to restrict, ahh.
In boy news: I feel like I have no connection with L, like were getting to know each other and and hes being all short with me, idk its kind of annoying. Like I feel like we would be good lovers, but never could we have a conversation or be in love. What do I expect, looking for a boy who is on a break with his girlfriend. Ahh, I think I'm going to stop being such a hoe, and settle down. Stick to one boy, at a time. Idk a lot of stuff has happened to me, and being able to be in control of boys is like my revenge on man kind. I should get over stuff, stop holding grudges and forgive people. I want to be someone different, but I think this hate I have is helping me ana wise. I don't even think I am capable of love. I'll try it again.
Stay Strong
Stay Safe
Stay Starved.
P.S. thank you for all the support ladies and comments it made my day. I'd be dead and fat without you girls.
Love and adore you all <3
fasts are hard
ReplyDeletei applaud you for you planning and determination
good luck
I think this plan is genius :) Fasting is difficult, it took all my will power today to not eat and I'm still struggling! You're incredibly strong to be able to fast for 5 days. I'm still going to try, and I hope I don't fail:/
ReplyDeleteStay Strong, Think Thin
xxx
omg totally on yr wavelength - ive sat dwn n thought bout my commitment issues n realised i use men to feel in control and that's the only way i can feel even a little pleased with wat i see in the mirror!
ReplyDeletekeep goin, yr doin great xxx
awesome :) you going to do great, and every time you feel like you going to fall just distract yourself, or come blog :D i love reading your posts.
ReplyDeletestay strong gal