So this morning when I got on the scale, it was at 172 (78 kg): Fuck my life.
Lets hear it for new years resolutions, Hooray!
1.This year I will get to my ultimate goal weight of 99 (44kg)
Everyone's resolution probably. There is a lot of time in a year, so I know to give myself one whole year to complete this resolution it would be ridiculous for me to not be able to reach it. I know I will be able to get it.
2.This year I will do a cardio workout minimum 3 times a week for 1 hour.
I know that once I break this rule I will start breaking it more and more so my real goal is to not break this rule.
So L hasn't talked to me since new years eve. What a bitch, I'm not texting him first he can honestly suck it. I'm on my period and pmsing fuck him. hah. Oh and LH and I aren't friends anymore. I blew up on her on new years she was staying the night and she was being such a bitch to me so I told her " Stop being a bitch I didn't do anything to you, don't treat me like shit, because I'm going to fight back, and if you want to leave then fucking leave and you can leave the door unlocked I don't give a fuck " Then after that I passed out. I got ridiculously drunk on new years eve I went to 2 clubs it was fun, but I do wish it was spent with someone better like L not that stupid cunt LH. On the dance floor I dry humped the most beautifulest black man I have ever seen, He kept picking me up and putting me on this little stage thing that people were dancing on and just grinding on me, me of course drunk as fuck let him pick me up, forgetting that I'm as light as a hippo. Well we exchanged numbers and he text me the day after and then never replied to my reply to his text before and hasn't text me since then, I don't care though, but for some odd reason I just wish I could find him on facebook. He was delicious, but my drunk eyes lie. LH said he was cute so I believe my drunk eyes. Oh and I almost forgot on the way out this guy tried to shove a drink down LH's throat so we pushed him and then we saw him outside and he told me to come over to him so I did
and then He was like "What are you girls doing after?"
then I said "Going home, sorry bye"
and as LH and I were turning to walk away that ass hole, you know what he fucking said, He said (and I know he was directing it at me because LH is fucking skin and bones)
"Well maybe when you eat a salad you can come back and talk to me"
I kept walking in disbelief and then once we got around the corner LH finally realized what he said and
she was like "I think that was an insult"
And of course thought it was directed at her, maybe she knew he said it to me and to try to make me feel better said he was insulting her.
All I know is that when I go back he won't know who I am (and even though I don't remember what he looked like) I will go up to him and punch him in the face with my skinny fist because at that time I will weigh 99lbs (44kg) haha this is my imagination. I wish I fucking took a picture so I could punch that dick in the face. Oh well, I just need to prove myself to the world then once I get there not give a fuck to prove to the world but remain that weight. Oh that will be awesome. I think this blog was just catching up everyone on my life, I want to hear about peoples new years resolutions. I just thought of another new years resolution:
3. To be more open with you guys this year, tell you all about my past, and the reason I am the way I am.
Yes this could be good. I just hate opening those doors in my life where I was traumatized, but I think it would help people understand me more. Anyways I found this on http://www.postsecret.com one of my favorite Sunday websites
That's it for tonight <3
Stay strong and beautiful
ha, that dick can prove some awesome motivation :P
ReplyDeleteand thanks for your comment, it did make me feel loads better.
stay awesome :)
What a load of horse shit. He sure wasn't complaining while he was all up in your business. :P I remember going to the bar when I was 160-170 (I'll get there again!) and the black men would just flock to me. I am pretty sure that (here anyway) the black guys like their ladies "thick". Someone told me once that black guys date "thick" white girls because they look like black girls with a badum-badump but aren't as bitchy. Her words not mine lol.
ReplyDeleteSomeday when we're both smokin' we should hit the clubs together. Men won't know what hit em'.
you know people come people go, to bad sometimes you don't get to tell them FUCK YOU and give them the finger as they go
ReplyDeleteat least you got to tell lh the dealio